Perspective

Yesterday was really not a good day. We have seen a speed up in how quickly the LOAs were arriving and I started to panic about how we were going to secure the funding in an even shorter amount of time. We also found out that a very large bonus from Tim's old employer wasnt going to materialize (dont ask..) However we had planned on using that $$.

It was kind of a double whammy for us. I have really been struggling with this. I am faithful, my heart truly believes that Our Awsome Lord is going to provide us with the funds to bring our son home. We started this journey with a little over $500 and He has provided every cent we have needed so far. I know that His timing is perfect and this is His plan after all. HOWEVER, my head still struggles. I am a huge control freak. I really really really try to give Him complete control, I just want to figure out what He will do with it.

I add up the numbers and dispair that it doesnt come out right. I know that He is bigger than any amount of money, and problem and any solution I could possibly come up with, but still I worry.

I went to my wonderful husband about this and my heart. He assured me that I wasnt this horrible person for doubting, but just human. We prayed for guidance and comfort together as well as for peace and we talked. The more my husband talked the more he put this all into perspective for me. However bad things may seem this is Gods plan and it will be fufilled, His way and in His time. There is no doubt in either of us that this is the child that he has led us to. Everything else is just details....

We are so very blessed. In this sinful world our marriage is stronger than ever, our children are our greatest joy and Christ is at the center of our family. In such a horrible economy we both have stable jobs, steady income and everything that we need. We have so much to be grateful for...so many families are out of work, losing their homes and struggling to pay their bills. My job centers around caring for severely mentally ill clients who if not homeless, live in poverty. Our daughter, our own medical miracle is only here by the graciousness of our Lord.

So today I awoke with a brand new perspective. I am going to rejoice in all of our blessings and leave the details to the One who can handle them better than I ever could.

"For the vision is yet for the appointed time; It hastens toward the goal and it will not fail. Though it tarries, wait for it; For it will certainly come, it will not delay." Habakkuk 2:3

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths." Proverbs 3:5-6

He will lead us in the path that we will continue to follow,

Blessings,
Amy