Change...its a good thing right??

Change,

I dont like it really. I tend to get into my routines, my comfort zones and even though they may not be ideal, they are comforting to me in their consistency :-)

This week has been ALL about change for us.

Im still not sure I like it, but still...

We were blessed with Tim's new job...but that created an entirely new set of issues for us. You see, Tim's new job is on first shift now...and my job is on first shift...and we have a toddler...do you see the problem?????

Ummm yeah.... somethin had to give...

So now you are currently reading the blog of an officially unemployed nurse...for now. Actually I am going to be working on an as needed basis but still. No schedule, no case load, no clients, no nothing. After 4 years it is really odd for me to know that I dont have to go in Monday morning. (I am sure I wont be sad Monday when the alarm doesnt go off though :-)

I am sad in many ways, but actually excited in others. This is a new chapter for us. I feel so blessed but scared too. My job has become a big part of who I am. What I do, the difference I make in the lives of my clients are important to me. I am praying that the "as needed" (hopefully once a week) basis is enough for me. It is a delicate balance I think. I want to be home with my kids, do all the things that I can to be the best mom I know how to...but what if that isnt enough? What if Im not good enough? See...I told you I dont like change!

I am going to miss my coworkers, my clients, my job in general...but God is leading us in a totally new direction now! I will embrace it, follow it....

But it is still change :-)

Blessings
Amy